Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Refocused

It's been over three years and I am back.  Back to determining what's next, back to living life to the fullest everyday and analyzing what's next at the close of each night. Back to writing my feelings down and making things concrete.  It's time to start make things happen instead of just thinking about it.  

I am feeling a peace about the direction I am going.  Even though I am unaware of what life will look like 3 months from now.  I am ready for anything life throws my way.  This year I have been focused on the people in my life, the way I am spending my free time, and the direction I am headed.  I am intentional in my actions. 

Today, my bible study was about being more Christ like.  How can I integrate Christ into my everyday life?  How can I resemble his character and unconditional love?  John 15:5  “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."  This year I plan to bear much fruit.  I will live more Christ like.  I will make a difference in how I live my life and to those in my life.  To this I will commit.


Thursday, October 22, 2009

7 Months Later

It has been seven months to the day since I have added to this collection of random thoughts. I don't want to think about everything that has happened, by I have to, it is a part of life. Four days after my last blog my brother-in-law passed away. It was horrible to be there and I can still picture it like it was yesterday. I had a week and a half to plan the memorial service. Started my new job two days later. And into this new world I dove.

This summer has flown by! Besides being there for my family, I have fled to the world of fantasy - bonfires every weekend, vball 3 to 4 times a week, tennis, salsa dancing, working, working and working some more. But what next? I am finally getting back to reality. Granted, I just turned 30, but it has been coming to this point for the last month. How am I spending my time? Who am I spending my time with? Where is my walk with God? Where do I see myself in 6 months?

My roommate is also moving out in 5 weeks and a new one moving in. I am changing my vball team for the winter league. It will be interesting to play with people I barely know. My life is like a revolving door. I have a solid 5 friends in my life, with others coming in and going out, one day to return. I need to make sure that I have a solid foundation, but this last year has rocked the boat. I am glad it is winter. It is making me slow down and think about life. Me time!! Very important...

Hopefully my next post will be more of a revelation of what is next to come. But I am making it a focus. Really all I want to do in life is make a difference. I just want to make sure I am on the right track!!

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Reflection

I am sitting here thinking how everything seems to be lining up and contemplating the direction my life is going.

At the end of last year, the earthly things that I found strength in disappeared from my life. Starting in November, I stopped talking to the guy I was seeing, was informed I was losing my job, lost my roommate, and found out my brother-in-law was battling cancer. These are all things I have been dealing with the last few months...

After months of job searching, this past Monday I was offered a job in Taylor (a mile from my parents) starting April 6th. Then in the afternoon, found out my brother-in-law's test results put him into hospice, knowing he could pass any day. It's been an emotional 4 months, and now I am seeing our families go through this and today watched my sister hold her husband's hand as he laid there, not ready to let him go.

I know there is a reason for everything and know that God has put me back in Taylor to be there for my family. I just hope that I find a way to still live my life through all of this... It is important to be there for my family, I just don't want to lose myself while I am doing it. I will continue to pray for strength and God's wisdom in my life.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Life of the Unemployed

I'm starting to lose track of the days. It has been 51 days since I have been unemployed. Can't believe it is already February. Groundhogs day!! Hmmm, wonder if he saw his shadow, or should I say she? :)

Anyway, I still feel like most days are Saturdays, well, except Sundays. I need a day off a week, and I took full advantage of it yesterday! After only 6 hours of sleep on Saturday night, I took a nap in the afternoon. Well, that and I am tired of the feeling that I have no control over my life right now and sleeping makes that feeling go away... Hmmm, yeah...more about that later.

So, when I first got laid off, I was going to wake up every morning, work out, take a shower and head to the coffee shop to job search and then read the book of the week. Well, let's just say it hasn't really happened that way. It is too busy and I can't seemed to get organized. I am falling into "what do I have motivation for today" from the first second I wake up. Even this morning, I woke up at 7:30 and headed to the gym. I have already checked email and am now blogging. But what will be next? Shower, breakfast and Caribou? We shall see..

I have done a lot of brainstorming lately, what do I want to do, are their jobs in michigan, where would I want to move if I can't find a job here and what will it be doing? Here are some of the things I came up with:
- Started to redo my resume and coverletter for every position that is a potential to make it a better fit based on my skillset.
- Need to continue working on my functional resume and figuring out what I really want to do when I grow up.
- Looked back into the option of working at a Resort on the water or a ranch doing some sort of business/marketing function - found some pretty interesting positions.
- Looking into getting my PMP (Project Management Perfessional) Certification. For now, I just purchased the study book for the exam, but need 35 credits and a little more experience before I could be certifed. http://www.pmi.org/CareerDevelopment/Pages/AboutPMIsCredentials.aspx
- Found a website with free courses online, so due to my financial situation, this will help me keep my brain sharp and continue learning. http://ocw.mit.edu/OcwWeb/Sloan-School-of-Management/index.htm
- Looked into taking massage therapy classes. Also, need to look into State grant money to help change careers. http://www.michigan.gov/mistudentaid/0,1607,7-128-38193_39939-134688--,00.html

Besides work related tasks, I am also trying to figure out the best way to use this time off. I am going to Florida next week for 3 days to reset myself and get a little Vitamin D :) I am also trying to find a cheap/cheaper vacation for March with one of my friends, to get a little more sunshine and water. Been searching the internet like crazy.

As far as being productive, I am trying to reorganize my house and get rid of some junk. I am also trying to figure out a schedule to start volunteering again, reading more books, getting back into my books for bible study, and of course reading the bible. All this being said, I am still trying to have a social life, play vball, and salsa dance :)

My only issue right now is lack of control, as much as I brainstorm and think and try to put life back together. I need to make sure that I am letting God have his hand in all of this. He know what is best for me, he will work everything out, but it has been a struggle because I am waiting for direction and don't want to go too far in one direction to realize that I am lacking peace.

Yes, this is the life of the unemployed. Too much time to think, too much time to do things, too much time to spend money I don't have. But not enough time to do all of it. Life was a lot easier when I had a job.... But I can't wait to see where this path will lead!! :)

Thursday, January 15, 2009

2009 is here!

I can't believe I haven't posted in over a month! I have had so many ideas and thoughts that I wanted to get out but I have not set aside time to do it. Kinda crazy! So, life is going very well right now, even though it has its hickups. After I got laid off, I took a road trip for a couple weeks which allowed me to reset myself. I have spent a lot of time looking for a job, redoing my resume, cover letter, and just figuring out what the next step is going to be. In the meantime, I have spent quality time with friends, had a few dates here and there, started playing vball on Sundays which has been kicking my butt, and am continuously reorganizing my house and my life.

My alarm goes off every morning at 8:00 and I get ready to start my day. I feel like everyday is a Saturday and that I still have a job. It's really weird! I have been very productive so far, and feel like there is just too much to do. Working out, reading, job searching, job fairs, shoveling snow, fixing food, helping out family, and starting to reorganize my whole house, what a project! I think I could get used to this no job thing...Hopefully I won't need to for long! I have had one interview with a possible position, and one phone interview that I am not really sure if it will go anywhere or if I even want it too.

I am glad there is such thing as unemployment, especially in the economy! I can't believe how bad it is right now. Can barely get through to UIA or Marvin, almost everytime I call the lines are busy or the system is just overloaded. It's a sad time.

But I am in high spirits and I'm trying not to let anything get me down right now. Optimism is the key. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and pushing forward. The only problem is that I feel like time is flying!

Saturday, December 6, 2008

The snow is falling!

The snow is falling and is beautiful outside this morning :) It makes me happy and now adays anything that makes me happy is a good thing. If you know what's going on in my life, you can understand why. It seems like I get some type of bad news everyday. Some things I have control over and others I don't. The ones that I have control over, I am working to fix. Those I don't, I am continuing to pray about. God will open doors and close them as well.

For those of you:
- Who are losing your jobs: This is just the next step in your life. Remember change is good! Change is also hard.. Pray about what God's next step is for you.

- Who has a family member who is critically ill: Be there for them, go out of your way to touch their lives, Pray for them AND with them. Remember that Family comes first and we all know that sickness and death are very hard to deal with.

- Who have miscarried: It is hard to lose a baby, but there is a reason that your body does not allow it to be born. May God be with you during this time.

- Who suffers from depression: Find the root of it, determine why it happens, learn not to depend on others for your happiness, find the little things in life that will make you happy. Trust in God that he will get you through it.

- Who have an addiction: It takes at least 21 days to get over an addiction. It is hard to stay away from it, not think about it, and not easy to let it happen again. Everytime you think about it, pray about it instead of dwelling on it. Your life will be better without it.

- Who have lost a relationship with a loved one or friend: There is a reason that everyone is in your life for a period of time. You can learn something from them, you may make mistakes, but try to see the good from the relationship and make sure not to make the same mistakes again. Treasure those moments that you spent with that person. Also take time to mourn for the loss, make sure that you process it and not just move on without dealing with it. Just remember that you only have so much room in your heart. You can now give more quality time to others and new people will enter your life in time.

Just remember to let God be your Rock and your strength. He is our heavenly father who loves us very much and he will provide.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Ann Arbor Adventures

What do I do when I have a day off? I spent it outside as often as possible.

I had last Tuesday off for voting day, so after I voted, I headed out to Ann Arbor. My first stop was Starbucks to get my free cup of coffee and catchup on my email.

Then, I headed to the many little shops along Main and Liberty. It was nice and relaxing :) I even ran into my co-worker Brian as I was wondering the streets.

Since it was too beautiful to be inside, I headed to the arb. I walked through the park, up and down the paths and to the Huron river. While I was wandering, I foung a fuzzy little caterpillar :)



Then I found an awesome park bench where I read and took a nap :) Well I didn't actually sleep, just rested my eyes and soaked up the sun!




I found tree #57 and I entitled this tree "Putting my life in the hands of God" I felt like it was a hand engolfing me. It was amazing :)



Then I ended the evening with a Hot Chocolate at Biggby with my friend Ben :)



It was the perfect day!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Let it snow!

Let it snow! It was a beautiful day outside today :) The big huge snow flakes falling from the sky... As soon as I got out of church, I put on my snow gear and headed out the door. I drove down to Detroit to help out with the Homeless BBQ. To join a group of people with the same purpose in mind. To get to know the people in Detroit. To join their society for a day. To take food to them, to serve them, to bless them. All this, while the snow fell! It was a great experience. I'm glad that I was able to spend this snowy day outside in the middle of Detroit. Sitting around a hot coal-burning fire keeping warm. Woo hoo! Then I went home and made a big pot of chili :) It was a great day! Restful, relaxing and ready to start another week.

Next Step

So, tomorrow is the start of another week. Another week to think of what I want to do with my life. To back track, 2 weeks ago, my roommate informed me she was moving out. I immediately posted an ad for a roommate. 10 days ago I was informed that my job is ending in Dec. I went home on Thursday night, thinking I was going to rent my house, move to DC and get a new job and live a life of high energy. On Friday, I talked to my "new" roommate who is moving here from California. Friday night, I started senting my resume to all my friends in Michigan with possible leads, old co-workers, searching indeed.com and various company sites where I had contacts for job posting. Within a week, I had two interviews and am waiting for a job offer within the next week. Talk about the fast track to the next phase of my life.

In the meantime, I put things into God's hand thanking him for opening doors. But am I moving to fast to really listen. Am I just so worried about getting everything back into place. I don't want to live off of the government. Unemployement? I don't want to settle into the life of unemployement. Should I continuously search for a job in all my spare time? If I receive a job offer this week and it looks good, should I take it? What will my life look life if I take the job? They asked if travel would be an issue? As much as I love to travel, do I really want to stay the night in hotels? It might be more travel in the beginning, with more conference calls as time goes on. I don't know... But I felt a real energy and high after the interview. Maybe it will be a good next step.

What do I really want to do? To be honest, I am a procrastinator and the longer I wait to figure out what I want to do, the less energetic I will become about it. I keep running in circles.

Well, this week I get to focus on training my replacement....At least I am in a better place than last week. At least this week, when she asks me what I am going to do next, it won't emotionally hit me like it did last Monday. I am in a better place, with a better job in line. I need life to be mixed up a little :)

Saturday, November 8, 2008

What do I wanna do when I grow up?

So, I am at the point in my life where I need to decide what I want to do when I grow up...

It has been a little crazy at GM lately, not knowing what rumors were true. Well, last Friday 6 people got laid off in my dept. Where there more coming? With as bad as GM has been doing I am assuming as much..

Well, on Thursday at 11:15, my direct boss asked if he and my other boss could talk to me for a few minutes. In my head I was thinking, am I being spared and listed as "strategic" or are they telling me that the fight for my job was at an end. Choice #2 is correct.. They had no choice, they did not want to lose me, but since I was contract, I was considered headcount. I am not a real person. However, I greatly respect my boss. He only had to give me a two week notice, but he just wanted to give me a heads up, so I has more time to start looking for a job. At that point, he knew that it would be sometime in Dec. Later on he came back and said Dec 15.

The good thing about my bosses and the work that I have done, is that they both said that they would pass on my resumes to our suppliers (energy, not auto) and would help me out in any way they could. They would even give me a recommendation letter.

So, now I have to decide what direction I want to go in. Do I take more time to find the "perfect" job in this economy or do I create three different resumes to show the three different skill sets and look for positions in all these areas. The only problem right now is that I found one company with 6 different positions that I want to apply for and one area is in the finance realm and the other in the Program Management. Two different set of skills... But I found a company in Michigan that is growing and hiring! And I know people that will hand deliver my resume! Hurray :)

I always thought it would be cool to be laid off, so I could go travel and play for a few months, but my cash liquidity is low, my mutual funds have all take 40-50% hits, michigan economy is bad, and unemployment is going to hit hard this month, and it is winter, so unless I go to Brazil....it's a little cold to be walking around Europe.. Oh, and no health insurance! I just wish I could secure a job in Jan and then I could go play for a month.

But needless to say, I will be updating my resume, and job searching for the next month, and of course, praying for direction!!!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Familar face..

All my life, I have remembered faces. I have a hard time with names or sometimes placing people. I have had conversations with people and its taken time to figure out how I knew them. However, most the time I see a person and immediately know.

So, I went out on Thursday to the Motor City Casino for a live Latin night in their hotel club. It was awesome, I was having a good time and about half way through the night, I saw this guy. Tall, dark and handsome. I knew I knew him, but couldn't figure out how. I was trying to figure it out, I even talked to my two friends about it trying to rack my brain. I was just about to approach him when I realized he was about to escort his "drunk" friend out. I asked him in passing if I knew him and he said no....

It finally hit me last night. He is a TV star on one of the new series. I looked him up and found his bio. I talked to my friend and she said after I left, he came back and they talked to him. Crazy, the very little TV that I watched and I felt like I knew him.

It's kind of interesting how we mix reality with "make-believe". Our brain sometimes plays tricks on us. What feelings and emotions are real? Our mind tends to lead us in one direction and sometimes our hearts lead us in another. I think we also tend to assume things based on previous knowledge or experience. Boy, how that can change the way we act and the things we do.

So, be warned about the dangers of the make-believe world. Things are not always the same in real life... Try living in the real world, not watching it on TV or through the stories of others!

Monday, October 13, 2008

Simple Little Pleasures

Tonight, there is a full moon and it is absolutely amazing outside! I just got done with bible study and threw my tennis shoes on and hit the side walk... When I moved here, I mapped out a two mile run and whenever I just want to get outside and get a little exercise in, I run through my neighborhood to this park about 2/3 mile away. With all the leaves falling, I kept hearing the crunching of the leaves as I jogged through the park. It was the perfect night to go running :) I just listened to worship music on my ipod, as I ran and reflected on life. It was so peaceful and the perfect way to end this longggg day! I wished this weather was here to stay. Nice sunny days and cool nights, but I know it is too good to be true. It is going to be cooling off by the end of the week.. Perfect for the apple orchard. I can't wait to go pick some apples and make an apple pie! Ah, life is great with all its simple little pleasures :)

Sunday, October 12, 2008

6 more days...

So my bday is in 6 days! I love my birthday! I usually celebrate for weeks, sometimes even the whole month :) But this year it is different.. I'm not totally excited about it. I don't want to plan anything, and this year, I don't have a co-hort to plan it with. Normally I just go to Chicago or something and then everything just falls into place. But this year, I have to decide what I want to do and who I want to do it with and start making phone calls and plans. Yeah, no thanks...

It seems like every time I have an idea, it falls through. I want to go to the Apple Orchard, but no one else is really excited about it or is too busy, I want to do things that I have never done before, or things that I haven't done in a long time! But I want to do them with someone who had a passion for it. Like going golfing, or to the rifle range, or to Eastern Market, or ??? I want someone to get excited with me. Not anyone, but someone who I love to spend time with. But this year, most of my closest friends are busy and no one else really seems to care. And I wouldn't say "care", but I get the response, "Just let me know what you want to do and i'll see what I can do" instead I want the, "I'll pick you up at 10:00 and we will go here and do this and then that and take on the city!!" I want there to be someone who knows me and my thoughts, and can help me take on the world!!

On my birthday, I don't like gifts, I like memories. And those memories I want to share with my friends. These memories will be starting on Wed and will last until Sunday night. Here is to the almost 30!! But not quite yet ;) Next year baby!!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

I have been blessed!

I have been blessed! I am just sitting here thinking of my life and that song is running through my head. I wake up with a smile on my face everyday and a peace in my heart. I have a house, a job, a car, great family, friends, good health...yeah, yeah, right? But even more than that, I live in a cute little city and can afford to pay my bills, my work is moving next week, so I only have a 5 mile drive instead of a 13 mile drive. I have great co-workers who I love to work with and look forward to each new task and how to conquer it. I just went to my sister's in DC and ended up driving home an old red T-top camaro in great condition. My new summer play toy! I can go visit my sisters and brothers whenever I want and love to spend time with them and hang out with my nieces and nephews! My mom and dad will be helping me replace my patio door and change the struts on my Grand Prix in the next couple weeks.. I just got tickets to go to today's UofM game for free and can't wait to spend the day in Ann Arbor.

I live every day as if it were my last. All this I give thanks to God! Without him I am nothing. I have people praying for me on a constant basis. My small groups are wonderful! As well as my friends and family. I believe it is God who as blessed me and I in turn want to bless others. I pray that I do not get caught up in material things and those things here on earth...

So, a little tangent..I had a dream the other day... I love to give, right? I never mind helping someone out if they ask... In real life, I needed to stop by my old work and pick something up this week, but since I don't live in the area, I asked a friend to do it and will be there today to get the envelope. Well, I dreamed about this scenerio. I felt bad for making my old co-worker John go out of his way, and for Ben to go out of his way to pick it up and be there for me today when I drive through town. I dreamed that everything fell apart. My co-worker was not happy about the inconvinience, Ben didn't have time and was getting nothing out of it, he wasn't at his house today when I was supposed to pick it up... I drove myself crazy in the dream, which lasted about 2 hours, waking up 4-5 times during the dream and not getting any sleep. I hate making other people go out of their way for me, even if I have helped them out tremendously in the past. I must learn to give as well as receive. I have the same problem with compliments. Yes, I have great self-confidence most of the time, but sometimes, I just don't think that I am the best I can be.....and have a hard time with it.

In the meantime (to get back to the topic), I am living a blessed life, and want to give all the glory and the honor to our creator! Let me live in peace and let me smile spread!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

SVO vs biodiesel

Working in the energy field always makes me a little more interested in various forms of energy. Even though I work with sources related to production vs product, it didn't change the fact that this topic intrigued me.

When I was in Costa Rica a few months ago, Wayne (one of the missionaries) was driving around in a F-250. He was very well known because there were only a few trucks in the area. Most people has small cars. It is a very poor area, which makes the price of gas even more expensive. Well, come to find out, he had a SVO conversion on his truck. SVO is simply Straight Vegetable Oil. He has found a few key restaurants in the area that use oil for cooking, takes their used oil (for free), filters it, and pours it into his truck. He essentially is living off of free gas, that is except the diesel that he uses the last 5 minutes to purge the oil out of the line to keep it from cooling down and clogging. I thought this was quite interested. I also noticed that the ride was much quieter than diesel. Wayne said that the coversion had already paid itself off!

Since then, I have had two conversations about this topic. I was sitting in Starbucks a few weeks ago and ended up talking to a guy named Brandon about the this topic. After about 10 to 15 minutes I realized I didn't know enough about this technology, so I went home and started researching it. I found a company that specializes in these conversions and they have some great FAQs on the differences between biodiesel and SVO posted on their website. I also found a blog that was posted on a converted Jetta. Both quite interesting sites.

http://www.goldenfuelsystems.com/resources_faq_systems.php

http://www.autoblog.com/2006/04/04/in-the-autoblog-driveway-2003-vw-jetta-svo-straight-vegetable/

Happy Reading :)

Monday, August 25, 2008

Three Weeks...

Its been three weeks since my last blog. How time has flown! It has been a rough recovery, not being able to go on with my normal life - no working out, volleyball, tennis :( However, last week I decided that I had enough and went salsa dancing! It was worth the pain :) Then I figured I would start my own PT, so I got a group together to go canoeing on Saturday. It was awesome! Again, a little sore, but slowing building things back up. I feel almost normal again. Not going to push it too hard, but I feel like I put my life on hold the last three weeks (or 2 1/2).

I have to say I am experiencing the feeling of conviction. I came home from my mission's trip prepared to work on my spiritual walk. I was sick for two weeks, caught up with life for a week, and then was recovering from my injury for the last three. God gave me plenty of down time to spend with him and I tried, but didn't have the best attitude about it because my body was not 100% and I could not do everything that I wanted and was used too. I could have used that time in such a more productive way. I did however follow the Olimpics which were pretty awesome. Instead of reading, writing, and reflecting...

However, this last week has been really good for me. I have actually sat down and started reflecting, and reading, and... Wait I just planned 2 trips this month, filled up almost every weekend in September and October and started thinking about all the places I want to visit on my two weeks off in December... Maybe I haven't quite figured it all out yet..

I have been thinking of what I have accomplished in the last 8 months. I can't believe it will be September this weekend. My goal will be to put a little concrete thought to this year and how I have changed and what I have been through.

Point of my rambles - The holy spirit is trying to convict me and bring me closer to him and every time he catches me, I slip through and find the next adventure. I pray that God will follow me and be with me in all these adventures and bring light and direction in the midst of my plans...

hmmm...things to ponder... Maybe blogging will be good and help me with some clarity.

Monday, August 4, 2008

A Long Weekend and an Answer to Prayer

Well, the weekend started off great and then came to a screaching halt! I was at my sister's on Saturday morning and we were training her new horse Freeze. He is a retired Harness racing horse and most of his training consisted of trotting as fast as possible pulling a buggy. He doesn't realize that he is allowed to trot slow :-/ Well, he wasn't very comfortable doing some of the exercises and freaked out on me. I lost my footing, then my balance, almost had everything under control and in a split second as he got frisky again, I decided to bail before he was running full tilt across the yard. I rolled off, landed on my back and had the wind knocked out of me. Yeah, a little rough. I had a hard time breathing and as I managed to roll over, realized that I was coughing up blood...yeah, not a good thing, so that was just the beginning. Praying the whole way to the hospital, as I was scared to breathe deep and cough up more blood... I made it to the hospital, got checked in.
So picture this, sitting on a hospital bed hooked up to a heart monitor, oxygen and an IV. After many checks - chest x-ray, CT scan and back x-ray and 3 1/2 hours later, they could not find anything wrong, could not figure out why I was coughing up blood. I was extremely sore and could feel the bruising, but no internal issues or broken bones. Praise God! So now my main issue is sleeping - there is no comfortable position, but I know within a couple weeks I will be back to my normal self!
Here is a picture 3 hours after I was released. This is me and my ER twin. We had made plans to hang out Sat afternoon and after calling her, found out she too had spent the morning in the ER (different hospitals). We decided a little time with a view of the water would help make up for the fact of spending time in the hospital! Yes, I still managed to find a way to smile :)

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Costa Rican Sites

All work and no play is just not right when you are in a place as beautiful as Costa Rica! We were given two days off as days of rest. I also stayed an extra 4 days which turned out to be an essential and definitely needed to complete my trip.

Combo Trip
  1. Took an all day trip around San Jose
  2. Saw the Poas Volcano
  3. Enjoyed the views of the La Paz Waterfall Gardens
  4. Took a River Adventure in Puerto Viejo de Sarapiqui – seeing Toucans, Monkeys and crocodiles
  5. Conquered the Rainforest Canopy (zip line) consisting of 10 platforms. We were transported by horseback to the entrance. Then we saw the butterfly farm, frogs and snakes upon completion.
Surfing Lesson on South Jaco Beach
Rented a surfboard for $10 (per day) and took a quick lesson from one of the locals. The waves definitely took a toll on my body, but it was worth it to be standing up cruising inland on a wave! It was so much fun, that I went a second time when I was on my own time. I have about 5 bruises to prove victory over the waves ;)

Tortuga Island Cruise
One of the church members arranged to take the pastor and a couple key missionaries, interns, and me on a large fishing boat to Tortuga Island, docked at Los Suenos. It was an amazing hour boat ride to the island, where we swam in the ocean, kayaked, mad sandcastles, played sand volleyball, read and soaked in the sun. It was a great day!

Horseback Riding Tour
We took a Discovery Tour, lead by a lady at the church, on Horseback to the waterfalls and had a mud bath! It was an absolutely wonderful tour. Unlike most other horses in Costa Rica, these were rescued horsed that were well taken care of.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Jaco Beach - Week 2

We spent 1 week in Jaco Beach right in the center of town – 1 block from the water! Things we learned in/about Jaco:
  1. Jaco was the “arm pit” of Costa Rica or better known as the present day “Sodom and Gomorrah”.
  2. It is a town right off of the ocean and is filled with drug trafficking, prostitution, and contains 3 brothels.
  3. We were told not to go out after dark unless we were in a group. It was very unsafe to walk around late by yourself. Women could be mistaken as prostitutes.
  4. It was very hot and humid in Jaco! Shorts and Tank tops were a necessity.
  5. The pace of life was pretty slow in Costa Rica. Everything took forever to get done and it definitely showed in the Tico Mentality.
  6. The church we worked with was the Calvary Chapel. The pastor and his wife had been in Jaco for 3 years. There was also a missionary couple that had arrived 6 weeks before our team got there. They also had 2 summer interns who helped organize the various ministries and locations.
  7. Every Friday, there is a fresh veggie and fruit market every Friday from 11-3. Wonderful mangos and avocados! We ended up making guacamole a couple times instead of living on PB&J.
  8. We stayed at the Estrellamar which was a pretty decent hotel. They had a hangout area with hammocks, and a pool where we cooled off every night!
  9. Hot Showers! Well, most of time we had no problems. However, there were a few rooms that still had cold showers…brrr.
  10. Rooms were full of bugs and critters! They wanted to keep us company! How thoughtful :) They also left many marks on us!
  11. The food was better! Still had rice and beans at every meal, but we were also given Salsa Lizano to use as a condiment and it was great. We also had an endless supply of coffee :)
  12. Little places called “Sodas” are very popular in Jaco and they are “pay by the plate” cafĂ©’s. It is sort of like a buffet and you point to what you want and they dish it out – rice, beans, chicken, and plantains. It was about 1,800 colon which is about $3.50.
  13. Surf shops and body boarding were also very popular.
  14. Most of the people in Jaco spoke English. It is very much a tourist town.
  15. Public bus service back to San Jose, which is about a 2-3 hour drive through the mountains, was only $3. Talk about cheap!
Jaco Ministry
The construction team worked on the local church right in town, only a 5-minute walk! No more buses  While the drama team was all over town (Pops ice cream at the center of town, the weekly market), the medical, cosmetology and VBS were at 2 different areas, which included the riverbed (where the squatters lived) and an area right on the edge of town.

As part of the construction team, we were given the task to rearrange the church due to potential as well as existing growth. We took down an office, some storage space, and the sound booth. Then we switched the stage area and added onto it, rebuilt the storage closet and the sound booth, rewired the church area to accommodate the changes, moved the projector and speakers, fixed the bathroom area and repainted everything. A full 4 days of work with finishing touches on the last day. Then we spent the remainder of the fourth day in the riverbed playing with the kids, jump rope, soccer, etc. It was finally nice to get out and hang out with the people of Jaco :)

This project was left up to our creativity, with minimal direction from supervisors in some areas, but then fixes in all areas afterwards. A little frustrating besides the fact that everything was done on Costa Rica time! Which is very slow! “When it gets done, it will get done”. But the final project turned out great, so we were happy!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

San Jose - Week 1

We spent 1 week in San Jose on the outskirts of the city. The housing consisted of 4 dorm style buildings each with 2 large bedrooms containing 6 bunk beds, 4 showers, 2 bathrooms and 2 sinks. Then we had a main area where we met for breakfast & dinner downstairs and team time & devotions were held upstairs. Things we learned in San Jose:
  1. At our accommodations, warm showers were rare! You were lucky if you got one. The more people taking showers, the shorted the hot water supply and pressure. Sometimes only a few dribbles would be available. We learned to take quick showers!
  2. No toilet paper was to be flushed. Yes, a little unsanitary! But the Costa Rican sewer systems could not handle it.
  3. July is the rainy season. It rained almost every day for a couple hours in the evening. However, a couple days it didn’t rain and a couple days it rained all afternoon!
  4. Much of the country is set aside forever into protected National Parks, wildlife refuges and nature reserves.
  5. Sun rises at 5:15am and sets at 6:00pm. So early to bed, early to rise!
  6. Rice and beans were the main source of food for breakfast and dinner with a random side. We were also served a side of fruit, scrambled eggs or hotdog (yes, for breakfast), and for dinner a vegetable or a side of chicken was served.
  7. PB&J were our staple for lunches, but we rejected the white bread after the first day and stopped at the store to get some good wheat bread!
  8. Drinking water was essential! Must remember to be hydrated at all times!
  9. Long Bus rides to our worksite in Acosta which was up in the mountains ranged from 1.5 to 2 hours! Costa Rica had crazy but good bus drivers! Also, there was major traffic in the downtown San Jose area during rush hour.
  10. Daily schedules were very regimented: Breakfast at 6:30, Devotions/God time at 7:00, Team time at 8:00, Dinner at 6:30, Church at 7:30, Lights out at 10:30.

San Jose Ministry
The Construction, Medical and Cosmetology teams took a bus to Acosta everyday to a local church. Medical and Cosmo brought all their supplies, but we had to wait until we reached the site to purchase the materials for Construction since we didn’t know what projects we were going to do.

Our construction team was made up of 8 people. We were told that we were going to work on putting a plaster/stucco substance on the cinder block walls due to new codes that the church had a year to meet. So our job was to get as much done as possible in four days. We were given 2 wheelbarrows, a hose, a shovel and 2 makeshift wooden ladders. By the end of the trip we ended up purchasing 20 bags of “plaster”, a bucket of plasticizer, 3 “sponges”, 3 square plaster hand trowels, 3 triangle hand trowels and 4 wire brushes.

We had a lot of fun trying to learn the plastering trade. We worked very well together, blending our knowledge, giving compliments, and shooting sarcastic remarks back and forth. Everyone was ready to pitch in where help was needed. We were surprised at how much we got done, but by the last day, we all very sore and ready for a break! Drama and VBS were back in San Jose in the city center. They spent their days doing dramas and VBS played with the local kids. We didn’t get to see the results of this ministry since we were not able to be in the same area.

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Saturday, February 03, 2007
Silence
This week has somehow all come together. It started with my small group on Tuesday. We were supposed to cover a study that I participated in a couple months ago and I was excited to hear that they changed their topic and now we are reading a book called Making Room for Life. As an introduction, we saw a video from nummo called "silence". It made us all aware of how much noise there is in our lives. I mean look how different things are from last century, how much technology has really changed our lifestyles. It seems like we always have the TV, radio, cd player, cell phone or computer on. When is the last time there was pure silence, your mind not being distracted by someone talking or hear the traffic buzz by. What is your schedule like? Do you ever leave time to just sit and ponder? Or are you too busy with the hustle and bustle of life? How important is listening in your relationship with God? Are you aware of what he has for you or do you only have time to tell him what you want and how you are doing? How much effort do we put into making sure we put this time aside or do we just give him the leftover time? Do we anticipate when he will speak to us or do we give him free rain?
One of the passages we read was I Kings 19:10 where the Lord is talking to Elijah and told him he to go stand on the mountain because God was going to pass by. Many things passed by and he was in none of them, but then came the gentle whisper. What if this was us and we grew impatient. What if we anticipated when and how he would come and left before we heard from him. When I heard this immediately an analogy came to mind. I really enjoy dancing. You may ask what does this have to do with hearing from God? Well, as a follow/female, the lead has control over the dance, and the follow may have a little input, but to have a smooth dance, the follow cannot anticipate. I have found myself getting use to dancing with certain people and I have certain expectations, but when I dance with someone new, I just close my eyes and follow their lead wherever they go. I know they are in control and to have the best performance possible and get the best results, I don't question their lead and I don't anticipate. I feel like that is how my relationship should be with God.
That was only 2 days ago and I have allowed myself to start listening. Let's just say that I woke up at 5:00 this morning and I knew there had to be a reason. I was wide awake and there was total silence. My mind just started working and ideas just fell into place. I don't really know how to explain it, but I felt like God was showing me things in my life. Then to continue on my way into work, I was listening to the new CD that my friend Jen made me (or should I say that she made for everyone in our small group :) ) and I was flipping though a few songs without thinking and I ended up playing "Word of God Speak" by Big Daddy Weave. This song just describe my situation for the day and really just cemented things into place. So this all comes down to silence, it is a very important part of our life!
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
One more thing...
So, a lot happened after my last trip and it brought on a new idea. I have two weeks off in July and I have been trying to decide what to do. I have always wanted to go on a mission's trip, so I have been praying about it lately and am asking God to open a door. One thing I am considering is a conference/missions trip in Isreal. I received an email about 5 minutes after I got the idea back on Jan 9th with this link in it http://www.onethingjerusalem.com/ and I could also volunteer for an additional week for another ministry such as the Joseph Storehouse www.visionforisrael.com/index-2.html. It is a place that I have been considering for a year. I am open to other ideas, but for some reason my heart is on this one, or maybe it is because I am having a hard time finding a mission's trip during this time frame?? I just wanted to see if anyone had any ideas or for that matter wants to join me, let me know. I am pulled into the ministry of light construction or any kind of physical work or even an encouragement or dance ministry. But I guess I will have to wait and see what is in store for me :)
Snow and Solitude...
Can I just tell you how much I love the snow! I was driving home tonight and these big huge flakes were hitting my windshield. It is just so peaceful and beautiful! I can't wait till it snows enough to go sledding, so if anyone is up for it let me know! I can be easily convinced to bundle up and go play :) Now I am home alone just enjoying the peaceful night and it makes me realize how great life is and how amazing my friends are. This week, I have been surrounded by some pretty special people. I am certainly blessed! It's interested to see life progress. The times when everything seems so hectic and then a breaking point when time seems to just pause and you take a step back to take it all in. I love these times of silence and solitude :)
Saturday, January 20, 2007
It's been a while...
I can't believe it has been 2 months since I posted anything! I actually got a journal and have been keeping a lot of my thoughts to myself, but I woke up this morning and decided to add to my blog. I'll just start by saying that it's been an interesting couple months....I feel like I have been on a roller coaster. I have this habit of just living my life and not realizing some of the bad habits that I get into or letting people down until after the fact then trying to rectify it. So, I changed my title to "No Regrets". I will try to live my life and not have any regrets. I will not focus on the "what ifs". Here's to the present and the future :)
Where did this stem from? I've been studying Ecclesiastes and it has been enlightening, but at the same time a little depressing...you may ask why? This book deals with the topic "Life is Meaningless'...or is it? Well, since digging into this book, without even thinking about it, I have started seeing people living meaningless lives. That is if you take the definition from Solomon - living to fill their lives with daily pleasures, living to profit from making as much money as they can or trying to get ahead in life, etc. This has really made me examine my own life. Even when making my new year's resolutions, I found myself doing some of the same, granted I have to agree that life is a balance. But the first things that came to mind were about me, how to make myself a better person. How can I live a more fulfilling and meaningful life? I want to live to make a difference! That sounds so simple, but it is so easy to get caught up in our own lives and issues. I have also found that in order to make it a little easier, I must surround myself with those type of people. I love working as a team to see things happen. We talked about this on Monday in my bible study. The challenge is to make them happen. I keep pondering what role I am supposed to play, what gifts has God has given me? There are many avenues I can go down, it's kind of like figuring out what job/career you are best suited for. What field will you succeed in, what will bring you the most happiness? We shall see... I am going to take the next month to focus on this and see where it leads me :)
Monday, November 20, 2006
Life Guidelines...
My one task for the week was to go through the bible and find verses that meant a lot to me. I have had my bible for many years and am constantly highlighting certain verses and sections that spark an interest. I went through both the old and the new testament to try to draw parallels between the two. The verses that I focused on were guidelines to living life, to be a better person, to make a difference. I ended up spending a lot of time doing this and here is what I came up with. This is only the beginning - there is so much more...
Let me start with this saying...
May God give you for every storm, a rainbow, for every tear, a smile, for every care, a promise and a blessing in each trial. For every problem life sends, a faithful friend to share. For every sigh, a sweet song, and an answer for every prayer.
Favorite Verses to Live By....
Jeremiah 29:11-13 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Proverbs 3:5-6 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Matthew 6:33-34 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Psalm 25:4-5 4 Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; 5 guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.
Psalm 18:2 2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
Romans 15:13 13May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Luke 6:27-31 Love for Enemies 27"But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. 29If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. 30Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. 31Do to others as you would have them do to you.
Philippians 2:1-12 - Imitating Christ's Humility 1If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. 3Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. 5Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: 6Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, 7but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. 8And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death- even death on a cross! 9Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, 10that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, 11and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
James 1:12 12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
Ephesians 6:10-11 - The Armor of God 10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes.
Philippians 4:10-13 - Thanks for Their Gifts 10I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Philippians 4:4-7 4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Thessalonians 5:16-18 16Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
Jude 1:20-21 20But you, dear friends, build yourselves up in your most holy faith and pray in the Holy Spirit. 21Keep yourselves in God's love as you wait for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life.
Romans 6:22-23 22But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves to God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. 23For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Hebrews 5:13-14 13Anyone who lives on milk, being still an infant, is not acquainted with the teaching about righteousness. 14But solid food is for the mature, who by constant use have trained themselves to distinguish good from evil.
John 15:5 5"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
Monday, November 06, 2006
Time is passing....
Do you ever feel like time is standing still, but the days keep on passing? Trying to see what direction life is heading and having no idea. Today has just been one of those days. What is the meaning to life? What am I doing and what is going to be my next encounter? How have the people in my life affected me and how have I affected them? Have they steered me in the right direction or am I being lead down the wrong path. Too much time to think. I think that is why I keep myself busy most of the time. But now it is time to focus on me. Maybe that is why life seems to be going in slow motion. Hmmm...... Will I be able to actually figure things out or will the winter depression take over? Time will only tell....
Monday, October 30, 2006
Consumed
My heart is beating so fast and my mind is whirling, there is so much going on and I don't know where to begin. That last 48 hours have been an experience. So many things have happened and I feel as if they were all meant for a reason. I decided to set this weekend aside to see where I was in life and where I am heading - making no plans and seeing how everything fell into place. I let God take charge, with him as the focus of the decisions that came about.
Then Sunday morning I received a powerful message about being consumed and on fire for God. I want to be surround by his presence and to feel how real he is. Until you experience this, it is hard to imagine. By the end of service, I had tears running down my face, just so touched and alive. Then, I felt led to go to another service, which is the basis of my small group. This cemented some of the ideas around community and being able to make a difference in a person's life, to reach out and touch someone outside your normal circle of friends. To go out of your comfort zone every once in a while. This led me to having lunch with a group of people after church. I was walking out of church alone, and a girl asked me to join them for lunch. The pastor made it a point to say yes to the next person to invite you to do something. I said yes and before you knew it, I was having lunch with an amazing group of people from different backgrounds, sharing our testimonies and struggles of how we came to the point we are now. What a difference just saying yes will make.
It's hard to give up control. It's hard to really know what God wants for our lives. We need to stay in the presence of God in order to keep our fire burning. We need to ask ourselves how many times have we felt the presence of God this week? Is it throughout the day, once a day, once a week? Is God a part of your daily life? So many Christian live in the dark when they could have a glowing fire, ambers that are constantly hot, ready to produce fire and an intensity. Fire will transform us from the inside out. Going through the motions will only leave us with an empty feeling. Just remember that God's fire is not dependant on you building it properly, if you open the door for him to enter and really desire it, he will ignite the fire in you. Just know that you must feed it in order to keep it from going out. I pray that God will use me to help feed the fires that others have in their lives and that they in turn will help me keep mine burning. God will take it from there if you let him!
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Resting
To keep that rested, listening position with God, I'm learning that,
1. You have to have time alone with the Lord daily.
2. Make sure you don't have any unconfessed sin in your life. Check to see if you have anything against your brother or if he has something against you.
3. Make sure you are continually casting your cares on God and are not gripping or holding on to things you can't control anyway.
4. You must constantly be checking to see who is living in your body, who are you feeding, are you fulfilling the lusts of the flesh or the spirit, what kind of seeds are you planting in your life?
5. It's important to control your thoughts. Take your life day by day, listen to what God is telling you TODAY, and don't worry about future direction, future grace, future growing.
6. Focus on His love and who He is and trust Him! He knows what you need, trust Him!
7. Be obedient to what you know He has called you to do or be. Don't second guess what you've heard from Him, don't turn back, don't contemplate something different from what He wants for you and whatever you do, do NOT compare what YOU want to what GOD wants. :)
8. Rejoice always, pray without ceasing and in EVERYTHING give thanks.
9. Minister constantly to others, share what the Lord is sharing with you, give what you have received, encourage others.
10. Keep in mind that what you are waiting for will far exceed anything the world or you yourself could offer. The infinite preciousness of His all-satisfying promises... there is no comparison. Wait for His perfect will. Wait for His perfect plan. Wait for His blessing. :)
"Blessed is the man that heareth me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at the posts of my doors. For whoso findeth me findeth life, and shall obtain favour of the Lord." Prov. 8:34
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Thirsty?
Another great word, it seems like every time I focus on God's will my life is touched. Today, Pastor Scott talked about John 4 - "Jesus and the Samaritan Women". In this parable, Jesus offers the women living water, so she will never thirst again. So many times, we try to fill our lives with earthly things instead of with God and what he has for us. We are tempted to go to the "natural" well and drink from it. However, eventually our flesh will acquire a taste for well water. The problem is, the more we are tempted, the more that we lust for those things until they consume us. However, we are never truly happy, we are never truly satisfied. If we reach out to God in these times and drink the living water, he will fill us, he will fulfill our needs. He will satisfy what we long for. We need to look at our lives and see where we are trying to fill it with earthly things. It is like trying to fit a piece of a puzzle that's not the right size, no matter which way we turn it or flip it, it will never fit. God will always fit into those places and you will never thirst again.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Reassurance
Today was a long day at work and more than ever, I just wanted to go home and just not think! But I decided that I needed to be in church tonight. I needed to face the issues, not ignore them. The next question was which church... As usual, my default is Zion. Every time I go there, I get an awesome word, so despite the memories it brings back, I knew that was where I was supposed to be. It was just what I needed! Let's just say I was literally glowing when I walked out at the end of the service. God is so good, he knew just what I needed to hear. I have been struggling with a few issues, which I found peace about and I was able to touch three people since I left church, less then 3 hours ago. Sometimes I don't feel like I make a difference, but it's times like these when I know God is using me :) Esther was the book of choice tonight. There were many messages, but these were a few that I came away with:
Faithfulness is rewarded. The unfaithfulness will be judged in due time. It is God's duty to judge, not yours. Grudges will only hold you back. God has a plan for our lives, if we stay faithful, he will bring us through. It may not be the way we have in mind and it may not be easy.
Value for standing on one's own conviction - I'm going to do what is right. In the end, it will be worth it! I'm going to be faithful, I will walk in obedience! We have many desires of the flesh and they continue to tempt us and we always seem to have excuses to make it seem okay. We need to stand up against them, because we know what is right. The holy spirit seems to remind us of this on a daily basis!
The kindgom of God is advancing and we have the choice to be a part of it. It will happen with or without you (Esther 4:14). Do you want to be a part of it and reap the blessing? Or do you want to sit back and watch. God wants each and everyone of us to be part of his plan.
Finally, the service ended with Matthew 6:31 "So, do not worry, saying 'what shall we eat?' or 'what shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?', 33 "but seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you"
We need to be kingdom minded!